Kau tahu perasaan macam bodoh tu macam mana?
Like you have known someone for a very long time, exceeded 5 years of course.
One day, you get along together and catch up some missed thing while both of you were gone or separated.
This thought always bother me,
And it bothers me bad.
I don't know whether I was missing the memories or missing the person I had the memories with.
Or I was just missing my oldself?
It is hard when you found out after the meet up, it is you that have changed, not the other party.
For I to feel bad missing the old me more than the memories or the people inside.
I'm confused.
I can't settle my feelings.
Sure, as a way to comfort,
I could say, everybody would grow up one day.
One day.
And I was just grow up or grew out of my own self.
Blergh. Not a cool thing to reminisce early in the morning.
A boggle is still boggling and I can't let this thought aside.
Mister,
I'm sorry. I'm not the one I used to be.
Took it for maturity or you were mature since the day we knew.
It is sad. Hahah. Sure, everything won't be the same. No.
But it breaks me seeing you didn't change.
You are good to stay same ol fella like before. And yeah, I blame myself for unable to cheer you up like before.
Life is hard. Sorry.
Like a touche my playlist is playing My Life Would Suck Without You // Kelly Clarkson, just after I've finnished typing this.
6 comments:
Not all changes are good. Some are great and some changes could worsen the idea of changing itself. But yes, not everyone are having high nostalgic sense... Mostly will let the memories fly along with the time. Sometimes, kite je y fikir lelebih tapi bile kite duk diam dan fikir balik.. segan n rasa cam bodoh sendiri. Soal hati.....
@Khamsi Abdullahapparently felt like I have changed to a mean-er, cold-er, uptight-er person. Haha, this selective memory syndrome, making us remember the sweetest and neglecting bitter ones.
all in all, it won't be the same.
@Cikya hmmm..u felt or u really are? kadang-lkadang kita je terlebih rase kite jahat. Tapi still it's a good sign that our heart is alive. Y taknaknya, dah confirm jahat tapi hati tak rasa dah buat jahat or dah jadi jahat..na'uzubillah. Ayat Cikya dalam la..saya takut jugak saya salah faham. haha.
@Khamsi Abdullahone does not simply evaluate his/her own character. hahaha. I felt I have changed, deswai.
Ayat dalam kut mananya Khamsi Uit. Tak deep ponggg.
Pasal jahat tak jahat, read somewhere, second sink, we sunk deeper, into the depth of darkness gitu la.
@Cikya haah..xdalam lah sangat.. saya kena baca tigepakaley (3 4 kali) baru nak komen. Nak start taip komen kene bace balik kot2 salah faham! hehehehehe
@Khamsi Abdullahhahaha. Biasalah, orang cakap berbelit acah puitis mmg gini Khamsi. *Face wall*
Hashtag deep. Adeh.
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