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Popcorn...Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.comBlogger249125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-19066314278935955332020-05-21T03:41:00.000+08:002020-05-21T03:41:12.419+08:00Memories: How to Forget and Forgive Self<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Assalam and greetings,</div>
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It was a situation accidental death </div>
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sudden one.</div>
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A babe of mine once mentioned how she felt,</div>
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how to cope with such abundance of feelings.</div>
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It was a death of a random frog at her house car porch</div>
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Accidentally rolled over an anonymous animal.</div>
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A frog to begin with.</div>
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Does life of a frog matter?</div>
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Would it worth it to lament over such incident?</div>
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What she did to such pity small animal, is it a sin for a believer?</div>
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If not a sin, would and could she kept rolling over frog or whatever insect at her house yards?</div>
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So I told her not to give a rat's arse about a dead animal, let alone a person...</div>
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To stand corrected,</div>
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Provided that she does not have any memories with the dead entity.</div>
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Asked her,</div>
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"DO YOU EVER HAVE ANY MEMORIES WITH THAT FROG?"</div>
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She laughed hard,</div>
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more to shrillig like a banshee right after she was about to feel sad and guilty.</div>
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"Twas a good hypothesis to play around."</div>
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All of us must have had lost some or too many one's we love.</div>
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But this story is on a death of a frog.</div>
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For a knocking over a person, it's another different coping mechanism.</div>
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Maybe we'll go deep soon.</div>
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Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com0Malaysia4.210484 101.975766-11.7947095 81.321469 20.2156775 122.63006299999999tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-66774129377888460122020-04-17T08:06:00.000+08:002020-04-17T08:06:51.466+08:00I Think, Therefore I Am<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Assalam and greetings,</div>
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That's how I usually start an email to anyone.</div>
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It has been ages since I updated anything.</div>
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Almost 5 years, if it were a boy; he would be running headless in a hypothetical house</div>
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living life as a kid.</div>
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So if I could choose an age to retain eternally; being 5 or a 6 years old is an option.</div>
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There were memories,</div>
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Some are still there, most were erased.</div>
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Mind is an intriguing 'place'.</div>
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Easily <b>fabricated</b>.</div>
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My narrative may not be the same as other humans if we were to experience a same event.</div>
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We chose to perceive what;</div>
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One ought to deny what one perceive as it shall defy what one chose to believe.</div>
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Do we really have to bother what others are/were thinking of us?</div>
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Does their opinions matter? </div>
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Do people's perception shall affect your life in any bit?</div>
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Would you die for not pleasing others?</div>
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Did you live your life accordingly as if it is relevant for public back slash?</div>
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Does your action has taken a negative effect on surrounding?</div>
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Are you happy?</div>
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What is happiness? Do all human deserve it?</div>
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How to not entertain idiocy without affecting your sanity?</div>
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I think too much of what if this and that.</div>
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I thought I could achieve this without sacrificing that.</div>
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I thought I would be strong; to never fall and keep walking (even the path made me drag my feet).</div>
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I am stretchable, limit is what set by my less reliable mind.</div>
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I have reach my limit;</div>
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A band that bound to snap.</div>
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Time to recoil and take a break.</div>
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If life is a race, I am a rabbit napping under a tree now.</div>
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I need that.</div>
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Stay on top. </div>
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<i>This too shall pass, Yy.</i></div>
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p/s: <b>Ask for an easier path</b>, being strong simply means the greater the hurdles.</div>
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Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-62374370844154372892016-01-25T03:21:00.001+08:002016-01-25T03:21:09.845+08:00Personal Satisfaction<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Assalamualaikum w.b.t.</div>
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When I used to have odd bantering over random issues with dad,</div>
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when we were on good term.</div>
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Hahah.</div>
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When I was too lazy to argue anymore,</div>
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"It's personal satisfaction, dad."</div>
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There he stopped bantering... till he continued again on another issues and till I responded with same answer.</div>
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Why did he paint his house the same color as his fence?</div>
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Such view tend to look odd.</div>
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Or I ought to answer him with ' people's personal satisfaction' when I can't answer his logic-illogical queries.</div>
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Not all question got answers, ey? But that reason is the easiest one.</div>
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And we can't turn back time. Missing him every now and then.</div>
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Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-7535322808126725422015-12-27T12:50:00.003+08:002015-12-27T12:50:37.035+08:00Jumping Conversation || Random <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Assalamualaikum w.b.t.<br />
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Yo!<br />
Feelin' a bit funky every now and then,<br />
practically previous sentence is a lie.<br />
Hardly updating any entry per month.<br />
Perfect excuse is I jump into labor wagon,<br />
enslaving life to work or passion,<br />
ending days with whines and anticipation.<br />
Lel.<br />
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The Labor Wagon:<br />
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Ain't getting comfy seat,<br />
ain't booking any bunk but the ride<br />
cause you bumps on head leading to<br />
think-less state...<br />
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There, almost perfect excuse,<br />
which is hardly true too.<br />
Urgh, I don't know.<br />
Phew!<br />
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Maybe not thinking much on people lately,<br />
concentrating on being an ignoramus into perfection.<br />
Maybe some issues keep cycling and bore me,<br />
where extremist doesn't entertaining like puppet with strings on fire,<br />
loosely relevant but jumpy they still.<br />
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Hell, what am I rambling.<br />
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Random popped inquisition:<br />
I never find cursing is ever charming.<br />
Casually using b*tch, f*ck and many more.<br />
But sadly I do find hell, arse, bloody is not as bad as above example.<br />
I do not know.<br />
Anyhow,<br />
making cursing a habit may be high chance do not provide a person with a decent image,<br />
As a lady, as a man, a child.<br />
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Urgh, I do not know.<br />
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There. Lost some touch maybe.<br />
Another excuse, maybe.<br />
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Toodles.<br />
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Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-46634280358098529912015-10-09T17:54:00.001+08:002015-10-09T17:54:21.367+08:00Caged Enrage | Madness<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Have you ever feel like killing someone?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Murderous</b> thought which doesn't make self being your own victim.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Nope, I do not have any <b>suggestive vote</b> on suicide but sometimes,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">we do wanna kill a human?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">If and only if such act is legal.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">If and only if human is merely pest.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">If and only if we could do anything what we want (to practice <b>animal-ish </b>life).</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Hahah!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I don't always get mad at people to extent of getting rid them off my face near instant...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Nope, I don't.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Last time I was too mad at someone was in 2008,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">too occupied in </span><b>inexpressive</b><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b> anger</b> that made me cried instead.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Plain idiot.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Why must crying represent weakness?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Feeling weak and vulnerable for crying over anger is pure idiocy.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I<b> loathe frail</b> character.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">After these very 7 years,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">a frail character managed to snap my sane.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Doesn't she know I barely keep my sane intact, eh!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Nah, ain't <b>barely keeping sane</b> but patience intact.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">She tested my patience well. Kudos!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Picture a frail character, soft spoken voice, a lady-like suave tied to a bull-headed </span>stubbornness<span style="font-family: inherit;">.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Read that bull-headed </span>stubbornness<span style="font-family: inherit;"> as an unnecessary being stubborn at wrong time, so called being <b>independent </b>almost every wrong </span>occasions<span style="font-family: inherit;">.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Ahah!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I hate your guts. I hate your attitude of fragile facade.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Because behind that cotton candy coating, there is a BS core within.</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Hahah!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">By this moment, I have low tolerance to BS.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">It is okay for me if you admit your BS attitude or behaviour to my face,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">but to fake it and being pretentious,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I really wanna <b>punch that 'pretty face'</b> of yours saying,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">"Cut all craps, I know your game. Save it for others who doesn't know, yet."</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">So I admit,<b> "I'm fake and hypocrite too."</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">No pretense.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Sadly, not everyone could walk their <b>fake mask</b> proud on hallway or to flaunt it on runway.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I may be a smug with too many BS and confidence.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">But, please drop your facade.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I read your moves even before you mill churns anything.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Oh! I was judged too and<b> being compared to you.</b> LOL</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">When I have this happy-go-lucky image, went all funky easy going friendly with others,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">you got this stuck up <b>preserving 'ikhtilat'</b> facade, the most lady like,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">the <b>most wanted 'in-law'</b> anyone could ever get.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Trust me,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I stuck around you enough to know your theories and practicals on <b>surviving life is near zero.</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">When I thought I am an ignoramus smug,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">girl, why do you beat my title to lack common sense and being an ignorant at the same time.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Though I have <b>to credit you because it is due</b>,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">"Girl, you love to trouble yourself with BLOODSHOT unnecessary things (read: helping others who doesn't even need your help but using you instead)."</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Should I spit <b>"padan muka"</b> for not setting your priority<b> right</b> or "padan muka" for being too <b>courteous</b> with manipulating human.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Sadly, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I tried to straighten you up many times,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">being supportive and all before I realise,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">you<b> bring upon all these dooms to yourself.</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Your choice.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Thus, do have fun with your <b>imaginary scoliosis</b>, girl.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I don't know who could knock any sense into your head.</span></div>
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Trying to calm down,</div>
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post 2 days of annoyance.</div>
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Misguided,</div>
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Lighthouse.</div>
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Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-56147822153869200552015-08-09T21:10:00.004+08:002015-08-09T21:10:55.358+08:00Breaking Point | Let's Bend Till One Breaks<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Bismillah.</div>
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Betul ke kewujudan anak-anak yang tidak bercita-cita tinggi atau punya impian yang besar,</div>
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ibu bapa anak-anak tadi telah <b>gagal semasa mendidik</b> mereka?</div>
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Heh.</div>
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I don't know.</div>
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Bloody <b>blood shot ambitious</b> thinking too far ahead, thick skull thick headed human;</div>
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is the writer.</div>
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Oh,</div>
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playlist is playing <i>Here With Me by The Killers</i> but mind is so caught up in <i>SheWolf (Falling to Pieces) by Sia.</i></div>
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Unhealthy attachment to wolf.</div>
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<b>Lone wolf.</b></div>
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Not a hyena, not a lioness, not evens a pussy cat.</div>
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A wolf.</div>
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Back to statement in the first sentence.</div>
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If that were true,</div>
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I shall deliver a load of gracious to late dad for being a constant motivator.</div>
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Always tell me,</div>
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"You must know <b>how to pick up yourself</b> after every fall."</blockquote>
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No, his words ain't exactly those but,</div>
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he made me realize why I should work my arse off to get what I want,</div>
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do live by certain rules,</div>
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guided by particular principles,</div>
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<b>regardless </b>both of us are like fire and oil when went head to head.</div>
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Thou those days were over,</div>
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such rebel won't be forgotten cause guilt still have a ride on my back.</div>
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Soon, I'll bury these dead horses (guilt) and learn <b>how to forgive self.</b></div>
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An ignorant nincompoop child.</div>
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Hahah.</div>
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Situation kills.</div>
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During growing up period,</div>
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having a too successful big sister, a special brother and a lil sister (she has nothing to do with my bench marks),</div>
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had set <b>aim too high</b>,</div>
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worrying every possible questions filled with doubts;</div>
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they’ll be singing;</div>
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"What if I did not succeed..."<br />"What if I turn out to be the black sheep in the family?"<br />"What if I <b>failed to</b> be equally successful like her?"<br />"What if... "</blockquote>
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many other things a<i> silly kid </i>could think at the moment.</div>
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Roads taken were not all pretty, there are <b>rough patches</b>,</div>
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did great, alhamdulillah till I found my breaking point in 2006.</div>
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Yeah,</div>
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that <b>female dog</b> bite us hard.</div>
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It leaves scars and forever lingers <b>flashing its presence.</b></div>
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How does one define a <b>breaking</b> point?</div>
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Let's imagine a human like a spring or rubber band.</div>
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*Oh, God, no! Now<i> Elastic Heart by Sia</i> plays*</div>
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According to <b>theory of </b>kinetic energy?,</div>
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kahkah,</div>
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when a spring has reached its limit when it doesn't expand or stretch anymore,</div>
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till it snapped and broke.</div>
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A broken spring.</div>
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Gedemmit,</div>
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<b>a human</b> approaching breaking point is like a spring reaching its limit.</div>
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Apparently,</div>
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I worried too much when I was a kid.</div>
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being <b>thoughtless for thinking too </b>much is ironic and funny.</div>
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Almost 10 years later,</div>
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learnt a lesson that,</div>
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To lost that, to achieve this,</div>
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to being broke and broken,</div>
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to be left out and unheard,</div>
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to be <b>taken care</b> off too much till it suffocates,</div>
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to lead a rebellion of <b>skeletons in the closet.</b></div>
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Love,</div>
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Don’t be too hard <b>on yourself.</b></div>
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You are not alone.</div>
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Creatures are creation.</div>
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It is <b>The Creator</b> that we need to put our faith in.</div>
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Too much pride you have, love.</div>
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It is okay to fall, every once in a while,</div>
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every now and then.</div>
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<b>It is okay.</b></div>
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You are human, ain’t angels nor devils.</div>
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We are gonna be the<i> craziest parents </i>ever! hahah.</div>
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Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-58256456887672518482015-07-24T03:14:00.000+08:002015-07-24T03:14:09.530+08:00Dia<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">"Tak naklah,
geli." dia senyum tunduk sebelum tergelak kecil. Pandangannya ditala ke
luas padang, entah tuju kepada siapa dan apa.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Terimbas
segala kenangan. Ideologi aneh. Harapan palsu. Usikan nakal. Gelak besar tanpa
malu. Buah fikiran yang terus meluncur aku, sehingga aku sendiri terkedu.
Kusorot lihat pada pipinya yang memerah, kini sudah mula mengelak dari
memandang tepat ke mata. Kini sudah reti berlapik susun kata-kata. Kini makin
berubah meninggalkanku sepi di laman memori.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">"Hm?"
dia dongak selepas terdengar keluh. Halus.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">"Saya
rindu awak..."<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">"Hm?"
dia kelip-kelipkan mata tanda kurang erti.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">"Awak,
bukan saya yang dulu." <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Kulihat
matanya pula yang merah sebelum air mata bertakung, mengetap bibir. Menahan
esak mungkin. Aku bertagak-tagak samada mahu meneruskan bicara atau membiarkan
sendunya habis.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">"Awak
bukan saya yang dulu..." aku cuba sambung sebelum isu ini putus terus.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Terlayar
segala ideologi aneh, harapan palsu, usikan nakal dan ketawa-ketawa lucu dia;
berulang tayang. Air mata makin kuat bergenang sebelum tangisnya pecah.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">"Maaf!"
dia lari meninggal masa lalu; aku. Aku tahu, detik ini akan tiba dan dia bukan
lagi manusia yang sama. Perempuan yang lantang bersuara. Perempuan yang tahu
apa yang dimahunya. Perempuan yang sering memandang dunia akan terhenti
putarannya jika aku sudah tiada. Dia matikan aku tanpa kubur dan nisan. Dan,
aku menghantuinya dalam tidur yang panjang. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Perempuan itu
menangis dalam lena sehingga (separuh) maut segan untuk bermesra. Dia terjaga. </span><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-63937635881286225722015-07-10T20:58:00.000+08:002015-07-10T21:03:43.238+08:00Existential Crisis<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">Cheshire cat</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">How does it feel to <b>doubt your presence </b>in
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">Neglecting possibilities of having multi or
parallel universe,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">one's diminished presence shall not affect
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;"><b>I</b> hope this may not sound suicidal,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">but if a person is allowed to <b>kill only a
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">he may has killed himself first before
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">If murdering people is legit, human kind
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">What is a human race without religion or
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">The only creation created <b>with wit</b> to
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">Shall I ask again?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">How does it feel to doubt your presence in
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">Till you wonder what would happened if you
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">What would even change if you were not
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">"It is easier to leave than being
left."</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">Sure, ditto to that.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">It may be easier to leave; so many 'lost'
souls had decided to die in his own hand.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">one shall not die it God do not allow it or
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">Jumping off 15 storeys building to ended up
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">Slitting throat to ended up in a <b>vegetative
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">It feels funny to contemplate why am I
alive or still alive or why am I even born.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">Does anyone has thought of this even once?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">I don't want to be an <b>odd ball.</b></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">Hahah.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">*chuckling over agitation*</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">Hahah.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">Sound like I hit the <b>deepest abyss</b> of
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">This is weird,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">I do not know how to continue this,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">just want to ask an absurd question maybe.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;"><b>It is easier to leave...</b></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit;">Jaga Diri, Jaga Iman, Jaga <b>Nyawa Itu Amanah</b></span></div>
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Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-54950583600810192122015-01-01T20:46:00.000+08:002015-01-01T20:51:15.510+08:00How to Love Like a Brat...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Oh,
Jeez!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">If
I know to love in the first place.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">I
had this quote, can't remember if I get it from someone,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">but
it has been on my facebook for years.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">"Love
yourself first before you love someone."</span></blockquote>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Almost
sound promoting let's being a <b>narcist</b>,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">with
a condition of having capability to love others.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">hahah!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">I
misspelled the title at first,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Hot
to Love Like a Brat. Ceh! Sometimes, brats are hot.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">That
hotness may be sourced from their cocky confidence.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Since
being <b>confident is sexy</b>, and sexy is quite a deal (ahem!)<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Thus,
Hot to Love Like a Brat is possible but ladies and lads,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">let
me remind you that you had jumped into a <b>miserable love life.</b><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Flaming
burning love which may burn items to crisp.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Why
did I write this?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">It
has come to my amazement that almost every week (if I check this blog's
statistic),<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">keywords
lead to this blog related to,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">"Ayat
mengayat perempuan"</span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">"Mengayat
makwe"</span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">"Kekasih
lama"</span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">"Gila
bayang"</span></span></blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 115%;">OMG, please move on.</span></blockquote>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">and
yes, they are all related to how to court girls (maybe ladies).<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Poor
lads,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">who
did you try to woo so bad till you need lessons to get a significant other?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Well,
we could blame girls/ladies for playing hard to get,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">pertaining
with a concept in mind,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">"I
don't want to appear cheap"</span></blockquote>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Err,
hello miss! Human do not have a price tag. Unless you were involve in any <b>human
trafficking </b>scheme.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">God
Forbid! Nauzubillah.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">From
my point of view (successfully maintained being single for almost a quarter of
century),<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">with
a disclaimer that every woman behaves almost alike but hell they think
differently, <b>bloody fickle</b> and could flip table a second after giving you a
peck on left cheek (hahha!).<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">My
observation,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">we
tend to fall for human's attitude (men in this case), sugary talks work charm
too.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">An
exception for a rich man, may attract gold diggers or materialistic if he is
blind to seduction.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">I
do not know what rich man would think (for God sake!)<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Since
I mentioned women behave accordingly to their taste and what not,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">they
fall for good attitude,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">or
at first blinded with a good behaviour facade a jackass may play during
courting.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Or
some would say, <b>courting is an act</b>, play decent character just to get laid.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">True
to that if you just want a one night stand, people!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">And
again, for one to search for a spouse to spend their life, attitude is
important.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Did
stumble upon quite a few men,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">complaining
over <b>why that schmucks</b> get (marry) that pretty girl, laid a decent wife
material.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Sure
do, men.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Most
of the couples that I met,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">the
one who got a good wife, they are pretty decent too.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Well
behave, less patriarchal (maybe) because the point is; those guys do not act
like a snob to woo females.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Get
my point?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">You
want to get married?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Drop
your stupid ego to act <b>like a playboy</b>.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Yes,
confident is sexy to woo like how buzzing bees pit stopping at flowers.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><b>Ayat
mengayat perempuan?</b><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Being
honest?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Like,
admit your flaws if you have. We are all human, if she loves you enough of
course she would accept your everything.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Let
you be her everything.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Stop
the act. Do not act. <b>Fix what attitude one should fix</b> (this goes for men and
women).<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Frankly
speaking,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">up
to my sleeves, I don’t have any tips on how to mengayat perempuan.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">I
do not really like <b>sugary talks</b> or flattery over my physical qualities.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Not
a wheedle I am, definitely not an arse kisser.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">But
some women fall for those <b>cheesy lines.</b><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">My
advice? Study your love of interest right.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Choose
your card right.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Love
is not a gamble.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Love
is not a game. These are phrases I used to use:<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">"Have
a taste of my game!"</span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">"Welcome
to my league!"</span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">"Can't
take the heat, bug off!"</span></span></blockquote>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><br /></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">only
used them when I was mad at men's fickleness. Haha. Mean prick, I know that.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Why
are you single until now?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in; text-align: center;">
<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">My
fair share of interests are hard to reach by most people that I know (bore me
or easily predictable)<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Need
constant excitement from a brainiac.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">But
most of all had a trust issue. HAHAHA.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Laugh
me off. Seriously, <b><u>women need assurance.</u></b><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Pen's
down. Ciao.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: inherit; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Moga
dapat mengayat bakal isteri.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">p/s:
now playing: Mengintai Langit by Coco</span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-30070085553675358922014-12-31T03:04:00.001+08:002014-12-31T03:04:43.636+08:00How to Live Like a Total Brat<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span lang="EN-GB">... with screwed views on love.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">I could hardly remember when I started having this notion,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">"Say NO to puppy love!"</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">"No dating until you'd done studying."</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Those kinds of chants or principles I would denote them so.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Maybe yes and maybe not.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">It started when I was a kid.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Was a less girlish back then, when was little.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">To climb trees, jumping from one branch to another, to play around
with boys,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">extreme level of hide and seek till got a jab of tetanus shot for
rusty nails prick.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Ah! </span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">I did burn one of mom's Tupperware collection.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">We were playing cooking with real fire,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">boiling water for drinks, out of curiosity I burnt a plastic
container with a pure stupidity plastic would not melt.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">No, the crime scene was behind a post office, next to our
neighbourhood.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">People say stuff like don't shit where you eat.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Muahaha! </span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">That could explain much our parents still not know about that menace
(maybe or they stay shut?)</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Loss count to how many mirrors I had broken for my experiments with fire
and cold water.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">*they are the mirrors one could get on round-shaped back in the 90s
sharpener*</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Not that I had too many boys friend but it was not a cute and cuddly
childhood.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Let alone rebellious phase.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">*I miss Along, he was my neighbour's cousin. All I could remember is
he was in green school uniform (KRS?)*</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Then I entered primary education.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Was a bully. Standard two, were separated from bully gang ended up
studying in nerdy class.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Primary school's memory we are not all rainbows and sunshine.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">I was sluggish, heck yeah!</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Filled with angst and ignorance.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Living in own world, hardly could mingle (being a PTS student was
quite a curse)</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Don't really fit in. Back in those years,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">I learnt;</span></div>
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<ol>
<li>Pretty girl will be wooed by boys</li>
<li>Students favours over teacher</li>
<li>Hitting puberty is another hell (for others)</li>
<li>I don't really miss those years.</li>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Hard to admit but maybe those earlier notions I got when I saw those
pretty girls lingering around puppy love didn't really succeed.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">*That was my school, I do not know about yours*</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Those maybe the years when silently anarchism creeping in.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Hahha!</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">but I do, I don't do much wheedle hardly I flatter people for my
advantages.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Why would I? Kissing arse is not something to be proud of.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Or maybe I was jealous that I'm not pretty neat enough back then?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">HAHAHA. Nope, not a pinch.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Still, the same scenario keep repeating itself in high school.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Those pretty girls, kissing arse flock, I chose to become a PRS.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">The safest choice? </span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Anyhow, </span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">what is up with puppy love? </span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Are they really harmful?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">I watched two movies tonight: If I Stay (laptop) and Flipped on
DIVA.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">They made me think if I could grow up once again,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">would I try to fall in love at early age?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">With this mind now; NO I do not want to grow up once again, a
mistake is a mistake.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Must dang girl learn well from it or learn from others' mistakes.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">We ain't live that long.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">This thought left me wonder,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">what would I have become if I had a lover or a few before.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Must be funny, I would be damaged than I am.</span></div>
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<br /></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Imagine this,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">without puppy love or several heartbreaks,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">my view on love is way too screwed. </span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Had trust issue for a trust is to gain.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Well, had a few crushes before but they are all almost smart, witty,
charismatic people.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Another curse: a sapiosexual.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Being a so called PRS, I witnessed and lent too many shoulders for
beloveds' heartbreaks.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">May have glued their broken pieces of hearts.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">May have curse or mock some of those guys.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Yeah, another notion of mine.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Don't mess with my girls; I'll let you suffer on death bed
(figuratively) pondering your wrongdoings.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Hehe.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">So, here I am.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Still with screwed views on love.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Considering whom should I believe and give my trust.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Who could surpass this imaginary wonder wall of mine.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">If I wasn't a dry heart jerk, might perform as a well lived playgirl
back in those days.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Thank God for these hardened principles.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Status: thinking who worth to spent time, thought, effort, money,
heart, prayers on.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Hahha!</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB"><br /></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">p/s: hurted tongue, munched too much M&M :(</span></div>
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Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-90398651000987141072014-12-20T16:42:00.001+08:002014-12-20T16:42:03.129+08:00Surat Buat Tuhan<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Assalamualaikum w.b.t.</div>
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(muzik latar: Note to God by Charice)</div>
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Jasad ber-Ruh,</div>
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Tanah,</div>
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Bumi,</div>
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Galaksi Bima Sakti,</div>
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Alam Semesta.</div>
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<br /></div>
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Tuhan,</div>
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<br /></div>
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Yang Utama tiada Dua, Allahu-ahad. Tuhan nan Tunggal Maha Wujud, Mengetahui dan Adil. </div>
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<br /></div>
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Terima kasih Tuhan. Alhamdulillah kupanjangkan syukur kepadaMu.</div>
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<br /></div>
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Terima kasih untuk hidayah yang diberikan. Sesungguhnya sebagai sejenis makhluk yang berakal, dulu hambaMu tidak cerap bagaimana mahu melihat hikmah dan pengajaran dalam kehidupan. </div>
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<br /></div>
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Tuhan, terima kasih. HambaMu ini mengambil masa 6 tahun untuk mencari redho kenapa nyawa arwah diambil awal. Ruh arwah berpisah lekas dari badan. Dahulu jahil, kini masih jahil. HidayahMu Tuhan, seperti tamparan kasar keras ke pipi. Jika manusia cuba bertanya-tanya apa rasa kehilangan? </div>
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<br /></div>
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Tuhan, kehilangan itu pahit, perit, pedih, sakit, tak terluah dibibir untuk insan sepertiku. Insan yang tak mampu nak luah semua cerita kurang manis. Insan yang tak punya kekuatan untuk berkongsi rasa. Insan yang tidak pernah punya apa-apa tanpa rahmatMu. </div>
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<br /></div>
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Tuhan, hingga kini aku masih cuba hidup sebagai seorang manusia menjadi petunjuk...</div>
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***</div>
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<br /></div>
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I couldn't bring myself to finish this letter. Frankly speaking, writing this is not easy.</div>
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<br /></div>
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Rose Kennedy quote:</div>
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<br /></div>
<blockquote class="tr_bq" style="text-align: justify;">
"It has been said, <b>'time heals all wounds.'</b> I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone."</blockquote>
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<br /></div>
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Scarred and scared. How did I survive this almost a quarter century, living almost a decade regretting my mistakes, arrogance and stupidity. I miss him so much.</div>
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<br /></div>
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<br /></div>
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Dear God, </div>
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<br /></div>
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Spare him your Mercy and Blessings. Let him rest in peace. Put him in the place of loved ones. </div>
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Amen!</div>
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Me,</div>
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(Miss-almost-always-misguided)</div>
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Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-34130015774290427362014-12-17T16:47:00.000+08:002014-12-17T16:47:45.397+08:00Jalan Pulang<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Petang itu redup. Tidak tersangka-sangka di
penghujung tahun begini, matahari masih sudi menunjukkan rupa. Barangkali Tuhan
ada pesan, jarang-jarang selaklah awan supaya makhluk di bumi tak kejung dek
dingin hujan. Redup, angin sejuk. Mama bilang, jika mahu tahu bagaimana hawa
negeri Kanggaru itu ibarat menghadap sepoi penyaman udara tetapi berdiri di
terik siang. Begitu enaknya. Bagiku, redup dan sedikit angin sejuk sudah
memadai kerana kami bersandar di dahan pokok.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Dia sederhana berselipar jepun,
tangan di saku jeans yang menunggu masa untuk rabak. Sebelah badan masih menyandar
selepas aku beralih tempat kebosanan. Mencangkung, kukuis dedaun kering-lembab
di tanah. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">"Rasa macam makin
sesatlah." kerling ke mana hala pandangan matanya. Tunggu respon.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">"Hm?" sepatah. Kening
sahaja diangkat tanda tanya. Sepatah. Bertuah.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">"Sesat tak jumpa cari jalan
pulang." aku jelaskan seringkas rasa sesat yang dirasakan sekarang. Kali ini
giliran tanah pula dikuis, selepas dedaun diselak bogel. Mungkin jika dikuis
tanah ini penuh konsentrasi, cacing pula muncul sebagai makhluk ketiga.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">"Ini." dia angkat lengan
kedua belah gaya robot tak cukup sifat. "Ini." dia ulang. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">"Apa? Angkat tangan macam tu.
Nak menari robot ke apa?" aku balas malas. Debu habuk yang terlekat di
kain dikibas-kibas, mula bangkit. Tak puas hati bila ditanya soalan jawabnya
bahasa isyarat bahasa badan gerak tangan. Aku tak ambil lagi kursus penuh
'Teknik Memahami Bahasa Badan Manusia'.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Dia gelak. Tangan masih bergaya
robot atau hantu pocong a la filem cina zaman dulu-dulu. Hantu yang
lompat-lompat kejar orang tu, bila ditampal azimat ke dahi muka baru beku. Iya,
macam itu lah gaya dia.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">"Ini. Jalan pulang..."
gelak kecil mati. Aku tarik balik muncung-muncung mulut selepas bebel tidak
puas hati tadi. Dia tenung tajam, riak muka agak serius agak tidak berperasaan.
<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">"Hahah!" aku tepis rasa
debar dengan gelak sinis. Amboi! Jalan pulang untuk rasa sesat kita rupanya
pulang ke dakapan dia. <o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Bertuah!<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="line-height: 115%;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>TaMMaT</b></span><span style="font-family: Times New Roman, serif; font-size: 12pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-76784049410501135762014-12-10T16:14:00.003+08:002014-12-10T16:17:52.955+08:00Being Apologetic<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Assalamualaikum w.b.t.</div>
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I'm sorry.</div>
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My apology.</div>
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I apologize for ...</div>
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Honestly, I don't know.</div>
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Remember how the world make fun or adore Canadian's manner over being apologetic at almost every situation.</div>
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I'm no a Canadian but in my point of view,</div>
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to being rude or polite, it does not count what country you were born in, what colour of your skin may be tinted with, what race would you belong.</div>
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To own such manner, apologetic or not,</div>
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it comes from brought up of one's family,</div>
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if the family was broken,</div>
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the manner came from one's life principles as long as he breathe.</div>
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Yes, we could see how well behave a human become from a miserable household,</div>
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we could even see how bad a human turned out from a happy family,</div>
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we could see how an orphan ended up being a masked devil or winged angel.</div>
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Now we are about to reflect to see which categories we fall in.</div>
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Which is yours?</div>
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Advertisement: I was watching Berlari ke Bintang whilst typing this,</div>
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wow, oh, wow! That wife is a bitch!</div>
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Her husband and kid (Intan) are almost an angel.</div>
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A stingy judgemental bitch.</div>
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Now pray unmarried young lad, for you must find a decent wife to marry, not a bitch nor trophy wife.</div>
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Pray to God, till your knees hurt.</div>
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*I rarely watch Malay drama because of screwed up scripts, but this drama is good*</div>
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May God bless the production crews.</div>
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Getting back again,</div>
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which caterogy do I fall into?</div>
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I apologise too much.</div>
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I'm sorry for being me,</div>
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sorry that I hurted you,</div>
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my apology if my presence ever tilted your balanced world.</div>
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Silly enough to ask for human's forgiveness over being alive?</div>
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Am I an ungrateful servant of God?</div>
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Was I trying hard to please human over the Almighty?</div>
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Let those questions seep in deep in heart while repenting every mistakes I had done, or might do.</div>
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The sinner.</div>
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Subconciously following heart's desire, The Nafs.</div>
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Conciously following misguided brain, The Thinker.</div>
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What if I tell you, my ultimate escapism is sleep, Half Dead.</div>
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My soul would leave the body, the Jasad (body) would be incapable to add any sins into heavily darkened book of deed?</div>
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How one could be so sure by sleeping, one could escape making any sins?</div>
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Or at least one could hope his sleep turned into an Ibadah (The Deed)?</div>
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I don't know, sincerely I do not know.</div>
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I'm a human, for one could try (The Intention) to stop commit sins.</div>
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May God count my good will, and may He Erase and put halt to any evil will to others (The Makhluk).</div>
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Let me tell you,</div>
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never start your sentence with 'No offence',</div>
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because whatever words follow no offence, they will sound offensive.</div>
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Say what you want to say, apologise to them if to speak out your mind will cost you their forgiveness.</div>
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Thing that I loathe most is to feel indebted with human.</div>
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Thing that I afraid most is to hurt human's feeling if they would never forgive me.</div>
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Thing that I hope most is to have a family (if ever have any) that I could nurture us well at every high and low.</div>
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May Allah Ease.</div>
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Jaga Diri, Jaga Iman, Jaga Niat</div>
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:: Salam Satu Aqidah! ::</div>
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p/s: Should not step low to please human, should us?</div>
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Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-52049924999643194802014-12-08T20:45:00.000+08:002014-12-08T20:45:13.772+08:00Words in .jpg Format<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Assalamualaikum w.b.t.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I've been thinking, what else could I do to prevent this mind from becoming dull.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Well, if one (the one) read this, one must know where this title was inspired.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Well, again. You inspired me in a way.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Ah, thank Lord for being a mature human, at your age.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">It was fun, it is fun, still.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">And dear God, please grant him some speed in typing.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Though I shall admit, I do type fast but prone to make tons of typo (typing error).</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Just on another note, I won't commit any typo if I was talking about serious matter.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">For an example, I was trying hard to woo you?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Hahaha.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Now,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">let's heed an image below.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Since internet is super slow over exceeding usage of bandwidth,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Shall share the quote,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">if one shall denote them as a quote,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">even if they deserved to be called as a quote,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">the point is,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">random thing found over internet but I adore it so,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">ended up saving the images and I'm sharing it's gem with humans.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">(contemplating if bots would read this blog, ah, beggar can't choose!)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: inherit;">ONE OF THE</span><span style="font-family: inherit;">HARDEST</span><span style="font-family: inherit;">DECISIONS</span><span style="font-family: inherit;">YOU'LL EVER</span><span style="font-family: inherit;">FACE IN LIFE</span><span style="font-family: inherit;">IS CHOOSING</span><span style="font-family: inherit;">WHETHER</span><span style="font-family: inherit;">TO WALK</span><span style="font-family: inherit;">AWAY OR</span><span style="font-family: inherit;">TRY HARDER.</span></h3>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Above is one of the images saved because they are interesting.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Sometimes, being fickle does not mean one cannot make a choice but has a problem which would satisfy his needs or which would please people around.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">If I were to justify being fickle over things.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">But most of the times, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I'd know what I want.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">An example again, I would go bold by saying,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">"I want you."</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">with a straight bitch resting face, expressionless cold tone... after 5 seconds one could find me running away because of shame.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">LOL.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">But, what is courage?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Courage or Boldness?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Err, it depends. I don't know what sentences should I ramble to justify my random acts of boldness,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">but</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">unfortunately the writer does wear her heart on sleeves.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">One time confession is not enough? Enough?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Said an almost genius Kahlil Gibran, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">"Try, failed. Try harder, failed better."</span><span style="font-family: inherit;">"Wait until you find someone who </span>worth<span style="font-family: inherit;"> more than 3 tries."</span></blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">giving me more points to ponder.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Hahha, I doooooo ponder a lot over your </span>advises<span style="font-family: inherit;">, *maybe*</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">:)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Till this day, date and time.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I'm still wondering if I should give up or try harder.</span></div>
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<span style="text-align: left;">Even though</span><span style="font-family: inherit;"> I did remark your opinions with,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">"One must know when to quit."</span></blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">To counter self </span>defense<span style="font-family: inherit;">,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">"One will not quit if one </span>worth<span style="font-family: inherit;"> it?"</span></blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">*I'm puzzled honestly*</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Being practical over things,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">weighing in this age, where shall find such human that could intrigue me enough,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">to fight but to reconcile later,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">to sulk but to crawl back sooner,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">to dote and to love better?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Auwww!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">*Hush*</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">My almost endless rant point is,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I have a lot of words in .jpg format.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Maybe could enjoy eye feasting at art gallery?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">(I've been dying to sight seeing at Balai Seni Negara since forever but until now have no reason)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Reason why images are more tempting than words?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">"If I rely on words, I'll be moving or circling around the ideas of the words."</span><span style="font-family: inherit;">"Gimme pictures, I could see thing in various point of views."</span></blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">See? My perception is better if it appears in form of image or </span>at least<span style="font-family: inherit;"> I could picture it in mind.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I'm good at building concepts in mind.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">*Imagine Iron Man 3 during the mind mapping scene*</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I claim mine is better. Kahkah!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Power of imagination, honey.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Decent imagination? Double Kahkah! </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">p/s: SPEAK OF THE DEVIL!</span></div>
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Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-15025417094995697412014-12-07T10:36:00.001+08:002014-12-07T10:36:42.098+08:00Mungkir Janji<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Ciri-ciri insan munafik;<br />
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<li>Apabila berjanji, ia mungkir.</li>
<li>Apabila diberi amanah, dia khianat.</li>
<li>Apabila berantam, ia melampaui batas.</li>
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<br />
Mungkir janji.<br />
Setiap bulan munafik.<br />
Gagal lunas janji dengan diri sendiri.<br />
Usahkan tunai janji, janji apa sudah lupa.<br />
<br />
Tengah moral breakdown. Sungguh-sungguh hancur.<br />
Tak tipu.<br />
Yang selalu ditipu diri sendiri sahaja.<br />
Walau kadang ada 'white lies' yang terberitahu manusia lain,<br />
<blockquote class="tr_bq">
hanya untuk menyatakan yang, "Aku OKAY, jangan bimbang boleh tak?"</blockquote>
'White lies', dosa dengan Tuhan atau manusia aku masih fikir,<br />
berdosa dengan Tuhan lagi mudah, bukan?<br />
Jika dosa dengan manusia gara-gara 'white lies' tadi,<br />
sudah sampai masa aku tulis surat amanat a la wasiat.<br />
Surat minta ampun atas kesalahan penipuan yang pernah aku sengaja lakukan.<br />
Sengaja berdosa?<br />
Aku salahkan nafsu dan syaitan. Waktu tu aku dah mati, buat apa nak salahkan diri sendiri lagi.<br />
Tunggu kena tibai dengan malaikat sahaja, atau kena celur dalam api neraka.<br />
Nauzubillah.<br />
<br />
Moral breakdown, cukuplah.<br />
Mental breakdown? Setakat tekanan daripada manusia tak cukup besar kuasa mereka nak jatuhkan aku sampai gila.<br />
Kah!<br />
Tak gila,<br />
menangis macam orang gila sahaja.<br />
Menangis. Kerja buat yang paling aku benci,<br />
jika dan hanya jika yang termengalir air mata itu, aku.<br />
Orang lain nak menangis, tak apa.<br />
Nak pinjam bahu boleh, nak tolong hulur tisu 2 gulung boleh,<br />
'a shoulder to cry on' versi aku datang berpakej tisu 2 gulung dan tong sampah di tepi kaki.<br />
Habis tisu, tunggu sekejap aku lari ambil balang kaca legap,<br />
nak tadah air mata yang tumpah tadi.<br />
Manis? Manis apa nya, tapi cuba untuk selalu ada. Di tiap jatuh bangun manusia.<br />
<br />
Berbalik kepada mungkir janji.<br />
Janji tak nak menangis sebab manusia, sebab orang buat.<br />
Sedangkan masa arwah koma seminggu aku tak menangis,<br />
atau sekurangnya aku tak menangis depan manusia.<br />
Hahha, menangis depan kucing.<br />
Kesian Yaya, terpaksa hadap aku menangis seorang-seorang.<br />
Bila Yaya mati, masih mencari calon kucing mana bakal ganti tempat Yaya, masih tak jumpa.<br />
Boleh lah, kau datang nak tenangkan hati aku dengan berkata,<br />
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"Ya, dugaan datang dalam bentuk manusia tu dari Tuhan jugak, Ya."<br />"Kau tak nampak ke Ya?"<br />"Dalam gerak laku manusia, roh tu, perbuatan Tuhan."</blockquote>
<br />
Dah lama tahu, dah lama tahu jasad tu kosong, mati lagi lemah.<br />
Tapi...<br />
<blockquote class="tr_bq">
"Tapi apa Ya? Kau nak tipu siapa tak nak menangis sebab manusia?"<br />"Dari Tuhan kita datang, kepada Tuhan kita kembali."</blockquote>
<br />
Tapi,<br />
Tuhan ambil pergi insan yang aku sayang, tak pernah aku salahkan Dia.<br />
Itu kan takdir, aku redha, ajal maut tak boleh elak, tak mampu nak lari.<br />
<blockquote class="tr_bq">
"Tapi apa, Ya?"</blockquote>
Tapi kenapa manusia nak letak salah letak dia pergi atas aku?<br />
Tak minta pun dia pergi awal, tak pernah harap dia hilang, nak selamanya dia ada sampai aku puas dengar bebel celoteh dia.<br />
Tak boleh? Iya, sekarang bunyi macam tak redha, kan?<br />
Bagilah peluang, aku manusia. Bukan malaikat tak berperasaan.</div>
Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-12070740206090333602014-12-06T02:14:00.002+08:002014-12-06T02:14:56.652+08:00Boneka Ais Kering<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Perasaan sekarang tak tahu nak cakap apa.<br />
Macam kena tipu ada,<br />
dipermainkan pun ada.<br />
Tapi untuk ditipu dan dipermainkan, mesti ada saham salah aku jugak kan?<br />
Haruslah, tak boleh penat untuk salahkan diri sendiri dulu.<br />
Dan kerja buat tingkahlaku ada balasannya.<br />
Jadi, selepas salahkan diri sendiri.<br />
Kita, kita mula bodohkan diri sendiri, dalam erti kata mengaku yang diri ni jahil (tidak tahu),<br />
pilih untuk jahil (untuk tidak mengambil tahu),<br />
kerana menjadi 'ignorant' sudah terlalu dibanggakan dan dibiasakan.<br />
Perihal yang terbiasakan,<br />
salah diri juga. Semua salah diri sebelum salahkan orang lain.<br />
Itu sahaja.<br />
<br />
Rasional tak tahu nak rasa apa selepas tertipu.<br />
Untuk diri,<br />
siapa suruh mudah percaya orang bulat-bulat.<br />
Sekarang dah meremang bulu roma rasa bungkam dalam dada.<br />
Rasa yang memberat, dada yang bergolak hebat.<br />
Bergolak tidak tahu mahu rasanya apa.<br />
Rasa diperbodohkan tidak seronok. Tidak enak.<br />
Dan, untuk dibodohkan perlu beri percaya buta dahulu, sebelum tunding jari kepada penipu?<br />
Mungkin sahaja aku boleh gelar dia, mereka, topeng-topeng kaca; tukang layar terbaik abad ini.<br />
Aku pula boneka di layar merah, dipetakan rentak oleh tari tukang layar tadi.<br />
Mungkin ini rasa Didi dalam aA+bB.<br />
Mungkin ini rasa dipermainkan selepas kita bagi percaya dan kejujuran.<br />
Rasa yang selepas menaip baris patah-patah teratas.<br />
Rasa yang telah kutemu.<br />
Rasa pahit, lebih pahit dari hempedu.<br />
<br />
Jie,<br />
ayat semalam makan prinsip aku kembali.<br />
<br />
Jie,<br />
"Menanam konsep redha dalam diri dan hati."<br />
"Pahit pun boleh telan, kan?"<br />
"Sedang dalam diri pun memang ada elemen pahit, hempedu, 'bile acid'."<br />
"Apalah sangat pahit rasa emosi."<br />
<br />
Jie,<br />
sahaja aku telan kembali empat ayat yang terluah, semalam.<br />
Pahit.<br />
<br />
Terima kasih, Tuhan. Untuk pengajaran yang tidak putus datang.<br />
Sayang, terima kasih. DugaMu tanda sayang.<br />
Bersangka baik dengan Tuhan.<br />
Bertahan kerana berTuhan.<br />
Dan ini malam aku telan segala prinsip yang pernah dilaungkan; lantang.</div>
Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-40929135591308013032014-12-05T04:13:00.002+08:002014-12-05T04:21:40.841+08:00Cinta Bukan Teori, tetapi Praktikal<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in; text-align: center;">
Assalamualaikum w.b.t.</div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Dah taip entry rabak, tapi tak sanggup nak
publish sebab <b>ego.</b></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Hahha!</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Dasar perempuan, tinggi sangat harga diri,
kan?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Terus ke tajuk.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Pengakuan, rasa macam dah matang sikit.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Dulu macam <b>naif </b>(bodoh sebenarnya) teruja
dengan cerita nikah konon manis.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Kah!</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Percaya cinta, cuma kurang percaya
cinta manusia sahaja. Boleh?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Eh, cinta manusia kot?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Dan gara-gara enak asyik cinta manusia juga
lah buat aku menjadi <b>saksi hati-hati yang patah.</b></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Dulu memanglah jawatan Pembimbing Rakan
Sebaya, tapi jadi tukang dajalkan orang pun ada.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Rules breaker.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Dulu.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Sekarang?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Masih rules breaker, cuma buat
jahat seorang-seorang, rebel sendiri-sendiri.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Kurang sikit tanggung <b>dosa
berjemaah.</b></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Ingat senang nak lawan arus sampai kena
sisih?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Outcast? Ah, biarlah.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Lagi senang lari, sebab bila buka
mulut dan mula membahas,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">depa yang sakit hati<b> terentap </b>jantung.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">El pernah cakap (taip),</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">ayat aku direct and destructive.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Allah, tak ada niat pun nak remukkan hati
siapa-siapa.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Terlebih jujur, versi omputeh oblivious?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Atau jujur sampai hilang adab?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Entah.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Masih fikir nak jaga hati
manusia atau <b>jaga</b> 'hati' Tuhan.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Kadang,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">ayat direct destructive kalau ditabur ke
member-member pesen<b> askhole</b>,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">yang sakit aku, bukan mereka.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Penat karang, penat berterus
terang.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Dapatnya, cerita yang sama berulang, tukar
garis masa sahaja.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Hati-hati yang patah tadi.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Nak nasihat tegur pakai apa?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Dalil Quran? Sama je.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Kau balas balik pakai dalil Quran jugak,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">"Wahai manusia yang menggunakan ayat
Tuhan untuk justifikasi diri sendiri?"</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Hahha!</span></div>
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<br /></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Cinta itu praktikal, sayang.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Teori cinta? Awak boleh pergi kedai buku
dan masuk ke lorong 'self help',</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Haa, kat situ banyak buku untuk
mengurangkan rasa pedih cinta teori awak.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Cinta teori.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Contoh cinta teori bermula dengan definisi
cinta.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Cara-cara <b>memaknawikan cinta.</b></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Bagaimana untuk menghadapi risiko cinta
yang tak disambut, 'unrequited love'.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Bercinta a la Islamik. *scoff* sebab tanpa
nikah.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Ah, sekarang tengah perlekehkan teori
cinta manusia dua jantina, ajnabi.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Jangan pandai cuba-cuba nak putar kait ke
cinta <b>sesama makhluk</b>.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Kecil besar aku baling dengan sepatu 4
inci!</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">*garang dan serius*</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Dua malam lepas, mungkin.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Member sibuk hantar imej-imej comel kartun
tentang definisi cinta.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Dan dipulang sebaris dua ke dia,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">"Love is I want you. I don't have to
justify what love is if you are by my side."</span></blockquote>
<br />
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<span lang="EN-GB">'I want' dan 'I need' tu lain. Fikirlah bezanya
apa.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Lepas tu seketul datang balas,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">"Kau tak boleh <b>LDR </b>lah macam ni
woi!"</span></div>
<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in; text-align: center;">
<span lang="EN-GB">Kurang asam betul, penat aku fikir ayat tu,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">*tak penat pun sebab definisi cinta tak
pernah ada*</span></div>
<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in; text-align: center;">
<span lang="EN-GB">"Hal dia kat mana, hidup mati kalau
jauh <b>serah ke Tuhan.</b> Tuhan jaga. Bimbang apa."</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Pehh, redho dan tawakal dah tahap dewa dewa
tukang bertapa di gunung lagaknya.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Tapi sungguh,</span></div>
<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in; text-align: center;">
<span lang="EN-GB">hati manusia ni Tuhan pegang sebab alaminya
berbolak baik.</span></div>
<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in; text-align: center;">
<span lang="EN-GB">"Ya muqollibal qulubbb..."</span></div>
<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in; text-align: center;">
<span lang="EN-GB">Tuhan pegang hati dia, setia, setialah,
curang, curanglah.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Cuma berharap, jika dia <b>berakal atas
firman </b>Tuhan supaya berfikir,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">dia tidak curang,</span></div>
<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in; text-align: center;">
<span lang="EN-GB">binasanya manusia itu atas tangannya
sendiri.</span></div>
<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in; text-align: center;">
<span lang="EN-GB">Jika mahu curang sekalipun,</span></div>
<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in; text-align: center;">
<span lang="EN-GB">tolong duakan dengan makhluk yang <b>lebih
bagus baik hebat.</b></span></div>
<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in; text-align: center;">
<span lang="EN-GB">Itu sahaja.</span></div>
<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: .0001pt; margin-bottom: 0in; text-align: center;">
<span lang="EN-GB">Supaya tak ralat bila aku pergi.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Ralat kot nak tinggalkan makhluk yang kita
sayang di tangan-tangan bimbo.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Iya, bimbo. Gelarkan aku perempuan
bertopeng misandris,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">tapi berasbabkan manusia ada akal,
perempuan tak sepatutnya jadi seketul bimbo.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Cinta praktikal tu bagaimana?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Bila tembok ilusi teori cinta kau tadi,
runtuh <b>dirempuh realiti </b>dunia.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Waktu tu, rasakan aura cinta teori tadi.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Silap-silap ke mahkamah syariah dengan
<b>cermin</b> mata hitam sepasang seorang.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Nauzubillah.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Iya, masih bujang.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Keji lah, berhujahkan,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">"Eleh, tak pernah bercinta ada hati
jantung hempedu nak buka kuliah pasal cinta."</span></blockquote>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Sebagai saksi hati-hati yang patah sejak 10
tahun lepas.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Terlebih pengalaman sampai jadi penakut.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB"><b>Penakut </b>sampai lari tiap kali ada orang
cuba dekat.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Kena marah sebab kenapa lari.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Tak apa, kali ini salahkan diri untuk
jadi penakut.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Sebab pegang janji Tuhan,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Jodoh memang dah tertulis.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Mana tahu <b>jodoh dengan maut </b>datang dulu.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">*senyum*</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Hampir lupa, kadang terfikir,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">kalau aku tak wujud, ada impak kesan ke
kepada dunia?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Mungkin tiada, wallhua'lam.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Kerja Tuhan. Ada tujuan kita wujud kat dunia
fana ni.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Kesimpulannya,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">pasangan awak tu manusia. Bukan dongeng
<b>rekaan watak romantis</b> dalam novel cinta drama senja.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Terimalah dia seadanya, insan lemah, jahil
banyak.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Cuma, jangan terima bulat-bulat sampai
langgar habis hukum syarak atas nama cinta.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Yang salah di pandangan Tuhan, tetap kena
betulkan.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Dan Tuhan,</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">mohon ampun atas dosa-dosaku jika pernah
menyesat-lalai-kan hati manusia.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Jaga Diri, Jaga Iman, Jaga Cinta ke Tuhan</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">:: Salam Satu Aqidah! ::</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">p/s: lagu patah hati paling power, <b>Warkah
by Bau</b>. Pehh!</span></div>
Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-73284675561675289612014-12-04T22:17:00.001+08:002014-12-04T22:38:01.899+08:00Sepatah<div style="text-align: center;">
Assalamualaikum w.b.t.</div>
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Rasa, dah patut mulakan tabiat jawab soalan manusia sepatah-sepatah.</div>
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Kecuali soalan anak-anak saudara,</div>
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<b>minda kanak-kanak</b> sedang berkembang memang akan banyak bertanya.</div>
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Ibarat iklan susu formula di televisyen,</div>
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"Menggalakkan sambungan neuron-neuron otak."</div>
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Tapi adik-beradik dulu, <b>membesar</b> dengan susu cap gantung, wakaka.</div>
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Sebab anak Mama ni memilih tak nak minum susu lembu,</div>
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anak Mama ni anak manusia <b>berlagaknya</b>.</div>
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Allah!</div>
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Habis, engko ingat yang suap anak-anak kecil mereka dengan susu formula tu sengaja bagi minum susu lembu?</div>
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Susu kambing?</div>
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Ah, kalau susu kucing boleh di<b>eksploitasi</b>,</div>
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<b>susu kucing</b> pun orang niagakan, mungkin.</div>
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Sebab pernah jumpa manusia yang memandang sinis akan ibu muda yang memberi minum anak dalam botol.</div>
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Bodoh. <b>Sepatah</b>. Untuk prejudis.</div>
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Bebal. Sepatah. Untuk skeptik.</div>
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Cubalah berfikiran baik tentang manusia, (husnuzhon).</div>
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Mana tahu dalam botol tu susu perahan ke?</div>
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Mana tahu si ibu sudah kekeringan sampai tak boleh menyusu anak sendiri?</div>
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Tambah lagi ibu beranak sulung,</div>
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engko ingat boleh keluar terus macam coklat mencurah ke ladang gandum?</div>
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Nah, bodoh dan bebal sebab <b>cepat menghukum.</b></div>
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*seronok berlagak jadi Tuhan, bukan*</div>
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Tapi, sebagai <b>perempuan bujang </b>yang mungkin dilabel bebal bodoh kemudian hari, </div>
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"Sudahlah bujang, ada hati punya nafsu nak nasihatkan kami yang berkeluarga."<br />
"Maaf, kakak, ibu sekalian. Saya minta bersangka baik sahaja."</blockquote>
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Dah kalau si ibu sengaja bagi anak susu formula dari umur sehari lagi, nak cakap apa?</div>
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Engko istighfar, senyum dan mula perlahan-lahan buat <b>suara hasutan</b>,</div>
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"Eh, you tak tahu ker? Kalau anak menyusu badan, body you akan cepat lansing?! OMG, I love your body..."</blockquote>
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Alar, biarlah bunyi <b>bimbo</b> ker gedik semacam,</div>
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tapi niat nak menghasut supaya si ibu tadi beri susu badan ke anak,</div>
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apa salahnya.</div>
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Mengeratkan hubungan antara anak-ibu, kot.</div>
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inshaAllah tak jadi kejadian <b>kurang kasih sayang</b> keluarga,</div>
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err,</div>
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tak tahu. Tapi doanya begitu.</div>
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Berbalik kepada persoalan asal.</div>
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Dulu, iya.</div>
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Memang jawab <b>soalan manusia</b> sepatah-sepatah.</div>
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Sehinggalah ter-berkenalan dengan seketul hamba Tuhan enam tahun lepas.</div>
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Ter?</div>
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Sebab tak jangka penghujung kami begini.</div>
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Dia sebuah sejarah dan pengajaran. </div>
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Syukur juga,</div>
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Tuhan <b>letak takdir</b> di awal aku kenal dunia, aku kenal dia.</div>
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Dia yang pernah menjadi 'crush', kahkah.</div>
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Gelaklah.</div>
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Dia yang aku rasa bukan cinta, sejenis obsesi sahaja.</div>
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Dia yang di mata sekarang, seperti kembar Abah versi muda.</div>
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Dia yang hadir selepas Abah tiada.</div>
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Dia yang mengajar diri menaip ejaan penuh kurang etika rempit.</div>
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(Zaman SMS tengah rancak, semua vokal konsonan dicantas)</div>
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Jadi, <b>berasbabkan </b>dia kaki drama,</div>
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suka jelaskan apa-apa panjang lebar sampai habis aksara 1 muka surat SMS.</div>
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Belajar daripada dia.</div>
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Takkan orang taip mesej panjang-panjang kita nak balas sepatah, kan?</div>
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Dah lah dalam satu mesej, ada 3-4 soalan dia bedil.</div>
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<b>Terdidik menjadi teliti </b>dalam membalas, penuh penerangan dan kadang terjangkit perangai kaki drama dia.</div>
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Mr Pujangga. Kelewang.</div>
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Dia sejenis 'unrequited love' selama 5-6 tahun, </div>
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sampai hampir semua manusia yang muncul depan mata cuba-cuba rasa,</div>
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aku akan bandingkan dengan dia.</div>
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Gila!</div>
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Gila, bukan?</div>
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Iya, dia bukan cinta.</div>
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Cuma sejenis obsesi diri yang buta <b>tentang hidup dan rasa</b>.</div>
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Dia ibarat malaikat pelindung yang mengelakkan diri daripada menjadi seekor 'playgirl' pemunah rasa lelaki yang berjaya.</div>
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Walau tak dinafikan, hampir suku abad hidup,</div>
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hampir 10 orang dah 'confess' dan ditolak bodoh-bodoh kerana dia.</div>
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Hahaha. </div>
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Bodoh sungguh.</div>
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Tapi, itulah.</div>
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<b>Kalau jodoh tak ke mana.</b></div>
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Dia di mana sekarang?</div>
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Dia masih ada, mengajar di hulu sana.</div>
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Sekarang berkeputusan untuk putuskan <b>hubungan</b> obsesi tak cerdik ini.</div>
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Makin waras,</div>
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Alhamdulillah.</div>
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Sudah tidak membanding semua lelaki kepadanya.</div>
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Putus kerana sudah <b>tidak punya sebab </b>untuk berhubungan lagi.</div>
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Hendak bertanya khabar, tidak tahu rasa.</div>
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Janggal. </div>
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<b>Ralat.</b></div>
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Dia sendiri sudah tidak menyebut nama.</div>
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Hanya seketul "Dia" jika dia tertanya khabarku kepada kawan kami.</div>
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Terima kasih, Tuhan.</div>
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Kerana menggerakkan hati hambaMu nan jahil ini untuk kenal dengannya.</div>
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Ramadhan 2008.</div>
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Sedang <b>berlatih</b> membalas persoalan manusia, sepatah-sepatah.</div>
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Sekarang aku rasa, </div>
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bebelan panjang tiada makna.</div>
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Coretan panjang, terlalu kisah gayanya.</div>
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Sedang membancuh simen untuk<b> konkritkan hati</b> dengan pujuk rayu manusia.</div>
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Soft sides (sisi lembut) dah banyak kali terpijak, dipijakkan. </div>
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Penat.</div>
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<b>Penat memberi</b> perhatian.</div>
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Bukan untuk dihargai,</div>
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cuma penat.</div>
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Diri ini manusia, bukan malaikat.</div>
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Jaga Diri, Jaga Iman, Jaga Tatasusila</div>
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:: Salam Satu Aqidah! ::</div>
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p/s: moga Tuhan memberkati hidup matimu.</div>
Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-13576402901663526022014-12-04T20:01:00.001+08:002014-12-04T20:01:42.353+08:00Abyss of Gigolo-ness.<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Assalamualaikum w.b.t.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Being a middle child, <b>almost</b> had it all except a little brother.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">The youngest was dead during infancy about 8 days after struggling in NICU.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Mom said, she looks like me when she was little.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">And she is also the only one with different name's initial; Siti Fatimah.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I asked her, why named her so?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">She replied, there was this matron, advised mom to gave the late that name.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Rest in peace.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Why do bother to talk about dead <b>sinless</b> people?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Because I've always been dreaming to have a younger brother.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Expecting my sister to get married faster, so that I could have one,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">she laughed at me.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">"No! Tak nak langkah bendul."</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Stunned, what the fish. Langkah bendul apanya,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">nak nikah, nikah sahaja, lah. I don't mind.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Since I know, I might be<b> dead before marrying anyone</b>.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Boo! Sound pessimist?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Nope, just facing reality. Had to weigh all possible ends.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">"What will happen, happens. What may happen, one could pray for it not to happen."</span></blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">There, I said it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Getting back on track relating abyss of gigoloness.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Mior buzzed me over my decision to deactivate twitter account.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Praising himself high thinking he was the first person to realise I was gone.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Alolo, comelnya. (He'd hate me for writing this)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">But you <b>asked for it</b>.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Thus, Muahaha!?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">hahaha. *sincere laugh*</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Abyss of gigolo-ness,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">he did come with such phrase. Of course I'd like to have him as a brother,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">but 'Cinta tak boleh dipaksa' and the <b>hell am I </b>to break his relationship with his significant other.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Err, since my little sister has her own standard about man.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I rest such thought.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">On another note, I had this notion since I was young, during hostel life or even university,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">senior or sophomore was busy <b>eyeing freshies</b> to make them so called 'Adik Angkat'.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Hahaha.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I would went, "Meh! The fish..."</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Thinking I had <b>enough drama</b> with my own siblings, the-considerate-generous-sister, every-day-I-nag-brother, half-a-woman-little sister.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">LOL.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Aktiviti beradik-adik angkat is a waste of time.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">If I want to <b>dote on anyone</b>, I'd keep them well.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Our 'ship' need no label. As long as we know, we are doing deeds to other humans?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Sebagai saudara seakidah, hablumminannas,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">S<b>audara semakhluk</b>, kena adil.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Though, I shall admit such action can be perceived as being selectively treating people?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Oh, come on!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">For once just admit,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">you had someone whom you like or adore most.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Mior?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Haha, he is a human whom grown old beyond his age.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Gigolo? Pray for I would be <b>rich enough</b> to sponsor 'makhluk-makhluk Tuhan di jalan jihad - belajar'.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Tunggu habis bayar hutang.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Hutang kan wajib bayar.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Lapor diri ke KKM Januari nanti, inshaAllah will try to plan and manage money wisely.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Sedekah apa yang patut, <b>jolly some </b>on parent.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">And to those whom used to think we went broke since dad is no longer around.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Shame on you?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">And thank you for making us ponder about our self value.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">LOL. We <b>went broke</b>. Jeez.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Sebab dia (makhluk) tu lupa, rezki ni datang kut duit sahaja mungkin.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Mungkin, lah.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Kesimpulan,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">abyss of gigoloness.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">It depends on how you perceive gigolo?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Hahha, if one were to define what a gigolo is, a noun.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I might be<b> stoned to death</b> to try to argue about their stance,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">but,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">there is always a but.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">My intention is to sponsor people whom want to study.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Not exploiting any in sexual term.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><b><u>Astagfirullah.</u></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">We do know, <b>mind could go dull</b> due to money constraint.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Been there, felt that, embrace that, hate that.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Hate being broke.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">(read: I don't want to ask money from parent, will survive from what I have."</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Jaga Diri, Jaga Iman, Jaga Niat Nak Belanja Wang ke Mana?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">:: Salam Satu Aqidah! ::</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">p/s: are you not entertained? Hahaha ;)</span></div>
Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-70286439657643741372014-10-14T16:48:00.000+08:002014-10-14T16:48:47.860+08:00The Heart | Crossed or Written<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: inherit;">I write what things that worry me, just to write things off,<br />whether those words are published or not.<br />I kept what I should keep and display what's needed.<br /><br />Write things that worried me,<br />If I could, I would choose to not to turning up on people and letting them know.<br />I would rather keep them to myself, again and again.<br />Built up anger or frustration; till the dam holding them explodes, to cry self out, which would never cry in front of others, if I could.<br />Call it ego or having a damn mountain of pride, but exposing self to others in my defense is an obsolete move.<br />*Imagine a chess board*<br />Do not want to seem vulnerable and fragile.<br />Be a tough cookie, this chant echoes repeatedly every downfall.<br />Hold them in, hahah.<br />Screw Elsa for singing Let it go.<br /><br />So I write things off.<br />Those words may sound full of cynics and sarcasm.<br />Some would even picture me as an angry cynical young lady after reading stuff I posted.<br />Being critical may be wrong may be wise depends on what occasion.<br />"I never thought that you were funny and witty."<br />"Well, thank you for judging me before knowing me in reality." <br />To such remark, I would smile and nod, or blew those queries with chuckles.<br /><br />The road not taken; the road which I led, the path I used to crawl never running.<br />That what makes me till today.<br />Used to wish, to wipe some bad memories off, wishing for selective amnesia (I can choose what to delete),<br />then a sister replied to those silly thoughts:<br />"Please don't dear, they make who you are know."<br />Her words are longer till tears breakdown after moments of lament.<br /><br />Then I stood, messed up and screwed, judged or ignored, stride hallways because I could.<br />I will write my emotions and what baffle me off.<br />Just do not expect me to open up to people that easy.<br />Let me be your damn good listener, your crying shoulder.<br />Do not ask about my chamber of secret till I open up to you.<br />Trust is to gain, not to be tossed around after begging for one.<br /><br />Remarks to Cry Fiction Baby,<br />if one ever asked I would never read sad stories or watch heartbreaking movies.<br />Just handle your own drama.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">::Toodles::<br /></span></div>
Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-33811296917217697582014-10-02T03:35:00.001+08:002014-10-02T03:35:14.440+08:00Perception | Way Life is Viewed.<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Assalamualaikum w.b.t.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I can't help but to comment on how we deal with any </span><b>gargantuan</b><span style="font-family: inherit;"><b> issues</b> in this country.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Since today is second of October in 2014,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">urge to recall my last post on first January by calling 2014 as "The Darkest Year" or "Zaman Kegelapan" for us to live.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Previous rant was about increment in daily <b>basic needs </b>like flour, fuel, electricity or whatever extra money we need to spend to survive.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Fiuu!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">We <b>survived till October</b> mates...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">*a Hooray!*</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Then,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">here came news of government revoking 20 cents of oil subsidies for RON95 and Diesel.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">You may view this horrendous revoke as, "Meh, they revoke the <b>subsidies only</b>!"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">or</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">join a wagon of mine with tad bit of rage sounded, "Crap! Now fuel's prices will increase 20 cents!"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">though,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">last <b>fuel's price spike</b> I do hear such response like, "Man, it is just 20 cents. No big deal. Here my 20 bucks and 20 cents for my fuel."</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Oh Lord!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Last comment was a sarcastic joke or he was just <b>plain stupid.</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">*forgive me, my language*</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">And,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">craps do happen.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">To tone down this enraged entry,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">let's correlate Sex Education in America with our leaders point of view.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">God, I hope this doesn't sound seditious at any cost, just trying to put some sense into current <b>nonliteral massacre.</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Many of us may have seen in movies with Sex Education class promoting abstinence instead of teaching those lads how to practice safe sex.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Ehem!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Nope, not gonna talk bout sex, but-t.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">If one use an <b>analogy for theory above</b>,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">under same principle; if you want to practice safe sex, go abstinence.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">If you want to avoid motor vehicle accident, you shouldn't drive, <b>use public transport</b>.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">If you do not want to get hurt, don't play with knife.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">In this country, if you want to <b>keep your money intact</b> and avoid burdensome increase cost of living, you should <b>stop using or buying</b> those items.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Hello!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">*knock knock*</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">*echoes*</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Guess what, I just knock some people's brains and it shows <b>presence of resonance.</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">p/s: not my fault if you don't get this joke.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Yes, sure. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Less subsidies for people of the country means more <b>money left for governance</b>, err, for government.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Sure, those money are for governance indeed... *rolled eyes*</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Unfortunately I do not and <b>cannot trust</b> how those people spend people's money (paid taxes).</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Their decision to revoke only RON95 and Diesel's subsidies still baffle this less skeptic mind.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Why don't we play a fair game, revoke 20 cents too for RON97 fuel? Why?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Was it because RON95 and Diesel have a <b>bigger consumer</b>, and you could save tons of fund?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">vice versa goes for RON97.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">We know what <b>kind of people</b> use such fuel, not from middle class people and certainly not those barely to live human.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Besides, a few weeks ago, a statistic came out claiming our country average family income was RM5900?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">The heck was that? <b>Atrocious accusation</b> or they (the claimer) just had proven we have distinct gap of living classes.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">So, I blame <b>capitalism.</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Who cares whatever blame I chose.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">To make things clear,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">must end this entry before more <b>repugnant snide comment</b> written.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Whoever you chose to blame,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">maybe <b>one</b> should blame oneself first.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">What did you<b> do </b>till it leads to this?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">What did you contribute to <b>make</b> this country a better place to live in?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">What are you willing to <b>sacrifice for future generation</b>?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><b>Inhumaneness.</b></span></h3>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Is.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Us.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Swallow it!</span></div>
Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-42880788677171462422014-09-24T03:21:00.000+08:002014-09-24T03:21:05.571+08:00How to Train Your Dragon | Fiery Patience<br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Assalamualaikum w.b.t.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Fikir nak cerita pasal kerja jadi cikgu tadika atau berangan nak jadi suri rumah.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Berangan suri rumah sebab satu, ada bond dengan JPA, *kecuali suami baik hati nak tolong bayar balik biasiswa ke JPA sebab langgar kontrak*.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Berangan keduanya, macam tak ada gaya je jadi suri rumah sebab tak berapa gemar aktiviti rutin.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Alasan ketiga, suri rumah adalah satu angan kerana entah bila nikahnya. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">*kahkah*</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Oh, sebenarnya terfikir nak jadi suri rumah sebab kesian tengok budak 1-4 tahun di taska,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">berkumpul kat pintu gril taska tunggu mak ayah ambil.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Kesian.</span></div>
</span><span style="font-family: inherit;"><div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: inherit;">Sebijik gaya banduan versi anak-anak kecil.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Kalau mak ayah ambil lambat, lagilah kesian.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Ya, saya tahu alasan yang mereka berikan kenapa mengambil anak dari taska sebegitu lewat kadang sangat kurang logik.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Simpulnya, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">buat masa ini.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Impian suri rumah kita KIV sebab hari tu sembang 'To make fortune together'.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">*sengih*</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Maka, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">kita cerita pengalaman jadi cikgu tadika selama sebulan.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Nak tulis pengalaman kerja di CV sebagai cikgu tadika pun jadi segan sebab sebulan je, tapi peduli apa.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Seronok jadi cikgu tadika?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Seronok kalau mereka nak belajar, rasa nak menangis dan putus asa bila mereka buat perangai *mengikut kamus hidup sendiri* kurang ajar.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Haa, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">nak jadi suri rumah tadi sebab tadika boleh jadi satu pengaruh buruk kepada budak-budak berkonsepkan perangai ikut-ikutan.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Seorang budak jelir lidah, hampir satu kelas esok lusa dan seterusnya akan jelir lidah.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Seorang duk tertonggeng atas meja, dua tiga orang dan seterusnya terguling meniarap atas meja, tertonggeng atas lantai dan kerusi.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Kalau yang ada anak saudara umur baya 3-4-5-6 tahun dua tiga orang dah rasa pening nak jaga,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">bayangkan ada 15 orang budak-budak 'misbehave' dalam kelas setiap tahun.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Iya, rasa nak menangis.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Rasa je lah. Hilang macho kalau menangis, mustahil menangis sebab tu.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Terusnya, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">jadi cikgu tadika penat gila-gila-dan-gila.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">T..T</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Terusnya lagi, jadi cikgu tadika kat situ tak penat sangat kalau sekadar mengajar,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">tapi rasa masa berlalu terlalu lambat sebab segala kerja kat bahu.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Dari menyapu, mengemop, cuci tandas, lap pinggan, asah pensel (manual), bagi makan, mandikan budak dan lain-lain.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Dear Lord, I may sound petty but you could try a day working there just to see how well one could tolerate.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Routine starts from 7.00 a.m. till 5.30 p.m. with an hour rest at noon.</span></div>
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Did I just bad mouthing my soon to be ex-workplace?</div>
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Jujurnya, </div>
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saya takkan cadangkan tempat itu untuk orang yang sedang mencari kerja.</div>
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A thousand time no.</div>
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One funny thing, </div>
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how well one could maintain their two-faced personality.</div>
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Oh, I have a lady as a big boss, you may call it lady boss.</div>
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Two-faced?</div>
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That is because she talks bad about others behind their back, and sweet talks in front of them.</div>
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Kantoi sebab pekerja lama kat situ yang bagitahu.</div>
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Dan kantoi lagi bila dengar cara dia bercerita tentang 'those parents' dengan pekerja dan betapa manisnya muka bila berdepan.</div>
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Urgh, now I felt bad after writing this.</div>
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If I were to say my experience there is a bit hellish, it won't be 100% because that job kind of teach me how to tolerate with such kind of people.</div>
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And it will be less hellish if salary she gave us worth each employees' labor.</div>
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Jaga Diri, Jaga Iman, Jaga Hati,</div>
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:: Salam Satu Aqidah! ::</div>
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p/s: stress boleh merendahkan tahap imunisasi badan dan dalam masa sebulan dah dua kali sakit. Never felt that bad. Never got MC for 3 days. Welcome to my future ex-hectic-life.</div>
Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-76598356956586276612014-08-11T02:36:00.000+08:002014-08-11T02:41:06.088+08:00To Grow Old Together<div style="text-align: center;">
Assalamualaikum w.b.t...</div>
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Dengan perasaan '<b>obliged to post</b> at least an entry per month', </div>
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here I am.</div>
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To grow old together or to grow up together?</div>
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To <b>reach maturity </b>together?</div>
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Hat mencapai kematangan macam susah je, sebab <b>parameter</b> matang tak objektif,</div>
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<b>pembolehubah </b>pula manusia,</div>
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buat sakit hati je pakai misi "Menuju Kematangan Bersama".</div>
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<b>Tak logik</b> pun ada jugak,</div>
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dah macam slogan hari kemerdekaan...</div>
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Oh,</div>
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tadi terfikir pasal ni tengah kunyah semangkuk bertih jagung sambil tukar siaran antara RunningMan dan The Return of Superman.</div>
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Kahkah.</div>
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Tak pernah sehayat ni menghadap 'Korean Variety Shows" sampai habis,</div>
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oh!</div>
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'lost in the middle of story again'</div>
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Malam tadi episod nenek dan atuk Sarang bawa pergi berenang, lepas tu depa ada sesi foto sekeluarga.</div>
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Cemburu.</div>
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Sebabnya sebelum abah pergi kemain ler orang bising cakap nak ambil foto keluarga tapi tak sempat, gitulah.</div>
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<b>Takdir namanya.</b></div>
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Akibatnya,</div>
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to <b>grow old together </b>sounds fun.</div>
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Tapi, hal ajal ni tak boleh ramal beb.</div>
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Maka,</div>
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misi paling realistik:</div>
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To <b>make fortune together</b>?</div>
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Hahah!</div>
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Jangan ler tuduh mata duitan...</div>
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Ingat rezki dalam bentuk harta benda je ker?</div>
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Anak yang soleh rezki jugak, err,</div>
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dapat zuriat pun dah sejenis rezki.</div>
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Hidup yang aman pun rezki.</div>
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Lagi lah hidup yang mudah.</div>
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Namun apalah seorang Muslim kalau tidak diuji apa lagi jika setelah mengaku beriman.</div>
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Ehem!</div>
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Haa,</div>
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kisahnya?</div>
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<b>Misi paling realistik</b> adalah:</div>
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To make fortune together. </div>
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Muahaha.</div>
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Motif gelak?</div>
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Nak kurangkan ke-serius-an hal rezki tadi.</div>
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Oh, lupa lagi.</div>
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Kadang kita akan pandang hidup orang lain,</div>
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Ya Tuhan ya Robbi senangnya...</div>
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Hakikatnya bukan kita tahu,</div>
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how many hell rides he has taken,</div>
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how many miles has he walked in those shoes, err, figuratively.</div>
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How much tears he has shed.</div>
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Spice up a bit,</div>
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sebab air mata secara literal adalah benar.</div>
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Agak-agaklah nak pakai ayat <b>anak jantan tak (boleh) menangis.</b></div>
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Kang datang puak #yizlumik persoalkan,</div>
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"Apa kau tidak pernah menangis kerana dosa-dosa kau?"</div>
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Well, burn, baby burn!</div>
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hikmah cerita lompat sana sini.</div>
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Do your best to get his bless. </div>
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Jaga Diri, Jaga Iman, Jaga Matlamat</div>
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p/s: dah lupa nak tulis apa tadi sebab sibuk cari imej. -..-</div>
Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-60202294376185785372014-07-11T02:38:00.001+08:002014-07-11T02:38:12.949+08:00Messed Up Rhyme Freak and Ramadan<div style="text-align: center;">
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after having a mug of hazelnut coffee and green tea,</div>
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these sentences rhyme no more, please don't squeak,</div>
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accusing me self-proclaim a rhyme way far from neat,</div>
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till this entry written, all sound-alike vocab fleet,</div>
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pardon me, wasting your time try to match beats,</div>
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bit by bit ideas fade,</div>
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yet I still rambling this horrendous enunciate...</div>
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Ah, screw this!</div>
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Saya suka Err,</div>
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Awak patut tahu.</div>
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Like a quote which I don't bother to trace its source,</div>
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"To Err is Human, To Forgive is Divine."</div>
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Yep, </div>
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that's that,</div>
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should suffice to justify excessive usage of err and I'm a human.</div>
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*scoff*</div>
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Motif sangat tetiba di belakang minda (at the back of mind),</div>
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terngiang lagu Human by Christina Perri.</div>
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Dah datang pulak alter ego sat sat tengah menaip,</div>
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apsal terngiang lagu, bukan ayat Quran di malam Ramadan yang suci lagi mulia.</div>
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Err.</div>
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Err tu sejenis verb (kata kerja); to make a mistake or to be incorrect.</div>
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Diikutkan niat murni sebab menulis blog tulis, apa-apa kena ada motif dan berpengajaran *scoff*,</div>
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Ramadan ni bulan keampunan.</div>
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Sekian.</div>
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Hahah, boleh kena tendang ke penjuru rumah kalau gitu je akhirnya.</div>
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Jujurnya,</div>
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dah mengarut sangat ni,</div>
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melampau-lampau karutnya.</div>
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Kait balik hal Err tadi,</div>
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dah kata manusia,</div>
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Yaa Ay yuhallazi na'amanu... (ehem! perasan beriman sangat)</div>
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Saya minta maaf kalau ada salah silap sepanjang kenal dengan awak-awak-awak dan awak...</div>
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Salah awak? </div>
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Ahiks!</div>
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*patut kena lempang gelak gedik gitu masa sesi bermaafan*</div>
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Iyer, saya maafkan segalanya.</div>
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Simpan marah, dendam ker kekesalan *eceh* bukannya dapat faedah interest rate 6% setahun.</div>
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Hurm,</div>
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it's okay, let it go.</div>
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Kalau pendam tak tenang.</div>
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Jadi, kita kosong-kosong.</div>
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Maaf lagi saya dingin (cold) dulu,</div>
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tak biasa. :)</div>
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Diakhiri repekan tanpa arah tujuan ibarat ular kena palu ini dengan sebuah pantun,</div>
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Apa diracik pinang setalam,</div>
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Kapur mengeras sebelum jamu,</div>
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Apa dikenang silap semalam,</div>
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Maaf dipinta tulus darimu.</div>
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Kahkah!</div>
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Jangan maki, tolong jangan.</div>
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p/s: takde p/s :P</div>
Cikyahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14643239028572430210noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4833274096127494429.post-4036130797080055082014-07-02T07:00:00.002+08:002014-07-02T07:00:26.920+08:00Hambar Ramadhan | Edisi Gua<div style="text-align: center;">
Assalamualaikum w.b.t.</div>
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Awal-awal puasa dulu boleh lagi nak <b>kilik telefon kat meja</b> sambil tunggu waktu berbuka,</div>
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nak tengok TV?</div>
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Tak kuasa gua.</div>
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Ni dah dua tiga hari (padahal baru ramadhan keempat),</div>
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keliling meja tenung makanan, sambil borak-borak.</div>
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Omputeh kabo <b>bonding </b>gitu.</div>
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hahah!</div>
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Gua: Barang pos pakai kereta api (KTMB) ni bila nak sampai? Tunggu baju-baju tu beranak ker apa?</div>
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Adik: Eh, baguslah beranak! Jimat duit tak payah beli dah.</div>
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Ma: Ha ah, baguslah.</div>
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Gua: Mana muat, sangkut kat betis nanti.</div>
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Ma: Kenapa pulak?</div>
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Ma dengan adik gelak.</div>
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Guwa: Ah! Takde hashtag hambar kan kali ni? *gelak was-was*</div>
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Susah betul buat kelakar, tak lucu nanti dapat #hambar</div>
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Err, </div>
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Tak pun gua ni memang<b> </b>penuh<b> ilmu di dada </b>dengan koleksi lawak hambar. </div>
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Peh, menikam jantung masa taip ni.</div>
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Dah la ayat <b>mengayat perempuan</b> je reti, malangnya.</div>
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Err, motif?</div>
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Motif buat syarat taip entry bulan Julai.</div>
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Natijahnya apa?</div>
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Rasa nak mohon <b>research assistant </b>kat HUSM tu kalau kosong.</div>
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Berangan betul, tapi.</div>
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Cuti lama-lama kat rumah ni tak buat apa-apa rasa kurang<b> berguna</b> betul,</div>
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tolak tepi gua jadi driver tetap Ma.</div>
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Nak jahit langsir Ma cakap, tak payahlah,</div>
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kita beli tempah siap je.</div>
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Eh! Eh!</div>
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Dah tu bila gua nak mengasah bakat <b>menjahit ala-ala surirumah sejati</b> ni?</div>
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Berangan surirumah, </div>
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nanti sijil <b>degree </b>kita gantung kat dinding je.</div>
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hahah! Macam lah boleh,</div>
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Bond dengan JPA gua nak campak mana nanti.</div>
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Kesimpulannya,</div>
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guna-gunakanlah tenaga<b> kudrat di jalan yang benar.</b></div>
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Happy Ramadhan Kareem (Benzema)</div>
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Kih! Hambar lagi hendaknya.</div>
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Oh, World Cup gua suka kalau Germany menang.</div>
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Jaga Diri, Jaga Iman, Jaga Amal</div>
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:: Salam Satu Aqidah! ::</div>
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p/s: lawak hambar ni macam kau joke using <b>lame pun</b>. And not everyone understood what a pun is, to even laugh at it.</div>
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